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The
pain of true love
Jet; Gajeel x Levy
Description:
I thought of this FF when I wrote the OS “Seven lost
years?”. But it got too long to add it as a bonus chapter, so I decided to make
an OS out of it. Also because a character that is normally just a side
character stands in the spotlight.
So the main character of this FF is Jet.
The pairing Gajeel x Levy is mostly just passive
mentioned but Gajeel makes an appearance at the end of the story.
Written from 01.03.2012 – 06.03.2012
The OS plays after the timeskip. You have to know the
happenings until chapter 253-261 or even more to understand this OS.
At the end of the OS you will find a little bonus
chapter, that you can, but don’t have to read. It’s a little special about
Gajeel and Lily, which I thought off while writing the OS itself.
Enjoy!
^_^
The
pain of true love
Sunrays fall through sheer curtains onto the big bed
in which someone starts to stir. The chirping of the birds outside on the tree
sounds softly but cheerfully into the room.
Jet is the first to open his eyes and blinks at the
mild light of the winter sun, which shines at his face. Too tired to get out of
the bed already he turns to the other side and wraps his arms around the woman
beside him. The dark, blue hair of his girlfriend gleams softly in the mild
light. He can’t help touching it and in the process stroking her cheek gently.
She stretches in the bed and turns to face him. “Good
morning…” she whispers as she snuggles closer to his chest. Her drowsy look,
her soft hair, her aura and her smile, he likes everything on her. Actually
that moment can’t be finer for Jet. If she just would be the right woman which
lies next to him.
They are a couple for nearly a year now but everything
on her reminds him of “her”. Of “her”, the one. The one he always loved, since
the moment he met her.
May it be her free spirit, her always good mood and
the boon to inflict others with it. Her shiny eyes, her sometimes tousled hair
which is still so soft between his fingers, and her smile. She has the same
smile …the same smile as Levy. But she isn’t her…
With a quiet sigh Jet decides to stand up after all.
He strokes Jana a strand out of the face, before he sits up and stares out of
the window. His gaze is dull and empty. Today is the fourth anniversary of
Levys disappearance.
Later that year as Tenrou Jima was destroyed by
Acnologia the mages who were on the island were declared dead. For many weeks
the waters around the location of the island were searched but without any
success. Without finding even one survivor. Without even one corpse…
Even today Jet can’t believe that she is dead.
Everyone says it, everyone knows it. There is no help for it. Everything that
Acnologia ever attacked was wiped from the surface of earth. So was his Levy.
His childhood friend, his teammate, his one and only
love.
Before he leaves the room of his girlfriend he
thoughtfully looks at her. She sleeps on calmly and carefree. But on Jets
forehead are worry lines. He needed a lot of time to get over Levys death, to
be open for something new. But now when he finally could be happy he realizes
how much he tried to see Levy in Jana. He knows that he has to let Levy go to
be able to truly love Jana. But his core tenses at the thought.
It is still soon. Nobody would be in the guild at that
time of the day. The guild… in the last 4 years they managed to fall down from
the “Top Number 1 Guild in Fiore” to the last place. Their guild is pawned and
they now have an old, little building on the outskirts of the city, which they
use as headquarter. The dept-collectors of Twilight Ogre pay them a visit every
month and they always get their point across. Fairy Tail is done but they still
try to keep the spirit of the guild. Secretly everyone seems to hope that every
one of the others was washed up somewhere and just hadn’t the possibility to
return by now. Secretly everyone hopes that they return, but with every year
that passes it’s harder to believe.
Jet goes to the cathedral to see the big memorial
plaque on the guilds
cemetery. It was build only days after the death declaration. It is about three
meters high and carries the guild symbol of Fairy Tail on his highest spot.
Right underneath, hewn in stone, a picture of Tenrou Jima. Underneath
follow the names of the guild members that were wiped out with the island in
alphabetical order.
Over and over again he writes Levy’s name with his
fingers nearly tender. The spray is in the same vase as every year in front of
the memorial. Big tears roll down Jets cheeks as he drops to his knees to speak
a prayer for her and everyone else who left his life on that island.
It’s the same every year. He can’t forget her…don’t
want to. Every time he tries and thinks that he had success this time the
memories come back like an arrow, straight to the heart. The insight, that he
will never be able to forget her, lets his heart bleed. Jet yields his despair,
lets his tears roll, like every year. Here in front of the memorial he always
loses his composure.
This time it should come even worse. Jana stands not far
away from him and watches him with tears in her eyes. She wanted to accompany
him, to support him because she knows how hard it is for him. She would love to
be there for him when he needs someone to lean onto. She knew it from the first
moment when he told her that story, which she got so hard out of him. She isn’t
the right one for that task. Only “she” could dry his tears.
“You…will never stop to love her, right?”, she watches
him with tears in her eyes as she asks. Jet looks up at her powerless. His from
shock wide eyes are swollen from his tears. “I… I’m sorry.”, are the only words
he manages to get out between his tears.
“So…. you really broke up with her?”, Droy looks up
from his meal as he hears the newest happenings from Jet. “Yeah… I’m sorry, but
we couldn’t continue like that.” the strawberry blonde answers and takes a sip
of his beer. Droy knows exactly why and he nearly loses his appetite over it.
The next moment he gulps down everything on his plate with a sour expression.
“When will you finally stop to live in the past?!”, he snarls at Jet. He is
tired of seeing that grief-stricken face of his friend. Every year it’s the
same. Actually it’s the whole year like that, but on the anniversary it’s the
worst.
“You are such a stupid ass! You could have got happy
with Jana! She is such a nice and beautiful woman!”, he appeals to Jets
conscience but in reality he knows that it was the right thing to do. It
wouldn’t have made any sense if Jet would have always tried to see Levy in
Jana. Jana didn’t deserve that. Droy hadn’t found a girlfriend after everything
and that Jet had found one and didn’t appreciate that luck, frustrated him even
more.
“It’s just how it is… I can’t lie to my heart.” he
empties his cup hastily and asks Laki, who has bar-duty, to bring him a double
vodka. “You are starting soon…”, Droy comments and watches his friend worried.
Since “that day” Jet has been drinking one too much more often. “You never held
back either.”, Jet spits back, unnerved from the always same discussion every
year and hints to Droys many empty plates, that are piling up next to him. Droy
got rid of his pain by eating and now he gets hungry whenever he gets angry or
frustrated. He himself calls it a hearty appetite, but everyone knows that he
just tries to keep the pain away. However those eating attacks didn’t anything
good to him the last 4 years. On sundry spots he starts to get out of form and
to put on fat. Jet quit advising his friend to stop.
Like always at that time the two old friends part
fighting. In the afternoon, however, they always come together at the harbor of Hargeon
again, to get on the rented boat and sail to that place.
That place where Tenrou Jima should be. One of their
organized dives shortly after Tenrou Jimas disappearance just showed that
Acnologias strength really wiped out everything. The whole island disappeared.
Not a single trace was found under water, that there was an island to begin
with.
Jets tears dried up for today, his dull gaze lays on
the surface of the water on which the light of the sunset is reflecting
already. A wistful smile lays on his lips as he whispers a soft prayer and
throws the roses into the water. He takes a big gulp of one of the wine bottles
they brought here to clink glasses with their missing friends.
“Hey, Jet?”, mutters Droy who is sitting on the bow of
the boat and does the same as his friend. “You never stopped to believe that
they are still alive, right?”, he ends his question and ogles his friend
secretly. “How could I? I cant bear the thought that they are dead…that Levy…”,
he falls in silence, cant end his sentence. He gulps the upcoming tears and
stares out into the sea where the island once was.
“Don’t you think it would be time to let go?”, Droy
continues nearly gentle. Even if he easily gets into fights with Jet, he also
worries for his friend. “Levy would be really disappointed if she could see us
now.”, he adds. Jet smiles softly as he recognizes how right Droy was. “Do you
still know… she always smiled… it didn’t matter how dangerous a fight was or in
which bad situation we were… she always smiled…”, Droy remembers and Jet laughs
lightly at the memory. “You… You are right… she never gave up.”, Jet answers
and whipes away an upcoming tear. “We can only keep her in memory… and continue
to give our best.”, he says. “Exactly.”, Droy gives him the wine bottle to
cheer before they both take a big gulp out of it.
“Do you think …its okay to believe… that she is at a
place where she always watches us and protects us from behind?” after those
words Jet feels a little childish. But they are his thoughts, his feelings, and
the wine that’s showing its affect and loses his tongue. “I think that’s fine.”
Droy smiles with a drunken blush around his nose and cheers to his friend
again.
With that view and the courage to look ahead, to let
the past rest, both find new strength to go forward. To continue their way
together they started years ago as team Shadow Gear. As good as they can. They
both stopped to wait for a return. They know that Levy will always be in their
hearts and there she is safe.
So they spend the following years. On every
anniversary they visit the grave together, but they stopped to rent a boat to
visit the place where Tenrou Jima once was. In the first time, they often
wallowed in memories of the good old time. Remembered their first mission as a
team, beautiful moments, sad moments. Their memories were holy to them.
Sometime though, they stopped talking about the good old times. Stopped to
remember Levy together. So they indulged in their own memories and thoughts.
Jet fixated himself on his training and his new techniques and Droy got the
most passionate eater in the whole guild.
The pain got weaker with the years, hollow, but it
would never disappear completely. To big is the gap Levy left at Jet and Droy.
Before Levy was their connecting piece. They even fought over her sometimes.
They never could agree on who loved her more. Now they keep silent about it and
seem to become more and more estranged.
Only sometimes they got to talk about the old times.
Their conversation was short and ended with them being all gloomy. They never
found a topic to distract themselves from their loss afterwards. With the
desperate try to stay strong, to never give up and stand, three more years
should pass.
The day began like every other day before. Once again
they got visited by the deptcollectors of Twilight Ogre, who rubbed their
situation at their faces again. They are at their end. The most of the members
left a long time ago, because there are no lucrative jobs anymore. The mood in
the guild hall is at zero and their nerves are bare.
Reedus sketchbook, with the portraits of the missing,
gets the things completely out of hand. Once again they get aware of the fact
that they are powerless. With Tenrou Jima that time their best and highest
members disappeared. The guild, Fairy Tail, is on the verge.
A weird sound lures them outside where something falls
from the sky. It is Ichiya-sama, a mage of Blue Pegasus. The news they bring
get them in astonishment and let new hope flame up inside.
Tenrou Jima seems to still exist!
With a queasy feeling Jet gets on the boat that brings
them to where Tenrou Jima should be. His hopes are up from the news. The hopes
to find anything to finally end anything. Most likely they would only find the
corpses of their friends anymore but even then they finally would have a clear
clue they could deal with. It is easier to let someone go when you stand in
front of their actual grave as when that someone is missing forever. You always
question if he isn’t still alive somewhere, like they did the last seven years.
After they would set foot on Tenrou Jima they would
finally know what happened to their friends. Jets steps are heavy though. Over
and over again he pictures which ugly find they would make. From the first
happiness, that they all survived and they would see the others and Levy again,
because that hope does exist, is nothing left. The island appeared out of the
water as they got near enough with the ship and weird woman, who could run over
the water, showed them the way.
As they find Natsu they are all overwhelmed from
happiness. That he is alive rises the chance of the others being still alive
too. They continue their search and one after another the other members, who
got on the island seven years ago to get their S-Rank, appear.
A movement at the end of one through destruction
created earthhill gets Jets attention. A wrapped strong arm appears and throws
the branches and the bushes under which the person is buried aside and. With a
low moan the person struggles to get out and gets on his knees. Dust is falling
from his long black mane and his hardly there torn clothing. Right next to
Gajeel the yellow fabric of Levys dress, which she wore at her departure,
flares up. With a nearly powerless seeming movement he pulls her up in a
sitting position and leans her at his body.
Jets blood freezes in his veins. A frog sits in his
throat and he can’t get a tone out. He is totally banned from the reunion, the
fact that she really is alive. Only as Droy next to him screams a “There they
are” he comes to senses and follows him down the hill to welcome Levy back in
the world of the living. After a closer look he sees that she is apart from a
few scratches and bruises safe and sound. Jet and Droy hug each other happily
crying. Now everything would go back the way it was.
Only at the ship, after the first happiness of seeing
each other again died out and everyone is indulged in their own thoughts, Jet
start to sort out his own thoughts too. The people who were frozen on Tenrou
Jima the last seven years need the time to sort things out. So he leaves Levy
alone at the rail and goes to the others, who are discussing the next days. The
backcomers would surely need a special treatment to establish to this time.
On the way there his gaze catches the Dragon Slayer
who sits on the roof of the galley and gazes over the deck of the ship. Everyone
else would think that he just stares into nothing, indulged in his own thoughts
like everyone else. But Jet registers it immediately. He looks at Levy. With a
indefinable but intense gaze. Gajeels red eyes seem to get magically drawn to
Levys back. There it pops in Jets head again. Before he hadn’t the time to
really think about it but now that they calmed down everything is clear in
front of him. “He” was with her all that time.
This fact lets Jet growl inwardly. He can remember the
day quite well, when the S-Rank participants had to choose their partners. Jet
had really hoped that Levy would choose him. But it went in another way and
Gajeel nearly forced himself on her. Levy agreed and both, he and Droy, were
depressed over it. “Oh Levy…”, Jet gazes back at Levy. If she just would have
chosen him… he would have been able to sleep next to her peacefully over the
last seven years. And it wouldn’t have mattered much if it would have stayed
that way forever. He wonders what happened between them. At least they started
as a team, which means that they were separated from the others for some time.
Jet doesn’t want to imagine the details. He still doesn’t know what Gajeel is
out for. For his taste though, he is a little too focused on Levy.
As the others call him he rips his gaze away from her
and stops his thoughts about it. Just for a moment he looks up at Gajeel again,
who doesn’t seem to register him at all. “What are you up to? What do you want
with my Levy…” Jet asks himself in secret, turns his gaze away and finally
joins the others.
Nearly two weeks passed since they came back. In the
first days Jet left Levy alone, so she could settle down a bit. In that time
she told them everything about the happenings on the island. Even from Gajeels
heroic fight against two members of Grimoire Heart.
Jet always gets a lump in his throat when Levy talks
about him. He would love to know what else happened between them on the island.
Levy always acted normal around Gajeel in the past regardless of what he did to
her, him and Droy, when he was still a member of Phantom Lord. Jet registered
it years ago, she always sought Gajeel with her eyes. A little disappointed
look was on her pretty face when he wasn’t there and a secret smile when he
was. Jet knows exactly that Levy is interested in that guy and that already
nettled him these days long ago. To add to that, Gajeel didn’t seem hostile
towards her either. Or was it just his normal way to act around her?
Jet just doesn’t get that Dragon Slayer. On the ship
on their way back home he watched her worried and now there isn’t even a trace
from the black-haired. Now that Jet thinks about it, Gajeel did distance
himself from her as soon as they were back. He left her alone, didn’t meddle in
and also did he avoid Droy and him when possible. To questions about the
happenings on the island he gave short and fast statements, like his character
is. Gajeel didn’t appear in the guild for days. From Mirajane, who overtook the
bar again, he knows that the other male is out on missions. Jet has to smile at
that thought. He can’t imagine that Gajeel is fully satisfied with this kind of
jobs a tiny guild like theirs gets.
Interested he now turns to Levy, who sits at one of
the tables in the back and leafs through some books. Before he watched her as
her gaze searched through the tiny guild to find that Dragon Slayer somewhere.
But she gave it up immediately and turned back to her books, which she leafs
through since she came back. As he once asked her if she searched something
certain, she somehow seemed caught red-handed, anyway she got a little nervous.
"N-Nothing special", she stammered and shut close her notebook.
Immediately she changed the topic and was back to her sunny self. Jet let
himself calm by that the first time. Levy seemed to be the same, even though
she was frozen seven years and separated from them. At the partys, which lasted
the whole week, she was like always. She laughed, danced and shared her good
mood. She seemed happy.
But she isn’t. For a few days now Levy seems to be in
low spirits. All efforts to get something out of her failed. Droy tried it
yesterday the last time and told her that she could come to them with every
problem she had. So was it before and so is it now. Levy seems to have big
troubles but she doesn’t let them see which.
Jet sighs quietly and watches her from the corner of
his eye as he walks over to the request board to look at the few new missions
they got. He will make her another proposal. He hopes that she wouldn’t at
least turn him down again. But the way she is right now, he can and doesn’t
want to demand too much from her, so he delayed that goal.
On the request board is a small mission that catches
his eye immediately. A small reward and a rare book are to snatch and he takes
the paper from the board. That would be the right thing for Levy. Of course he
wants to distract her from her troubles and thoughts, which she doesn’t want to
show.
Optimistically and with a smile in his face he goes
and submits his proposal. First Levy reacts surprised and overcharged. With the
lie to have a bad headache she grabs her things and leaves the guild.
On the bar Jet bangs his fist at the counter.
"Damn!" he snarls and Droy sighs next to him. His try yesterday to
get her to a job ended also like that. "What is just going on with
her?", he floats his question. "She always told us when she worried
about something, back then, why is it not like that anymore? Are we too
annoying? Or are we even too old?", Jet is obviously desperate as he
orders a beer from Mirajane. "Now don’t go overboard…", Droy states
calmly, who is ogling the muffin in the vitrin in front of him for some time
now. He is still under control and it stays with watching. "She will calm
down… I could think that she just has to get used to that situation…", he
explains and tears his gaze away from the muffin before he looks at Jet.
"You think so? What if she leaves our team…" Jet fears next.
"Stop talking nonsense! And even if… we couldn’t hold her back. She has to
know herself whats good for her… Even if its hard for us.", Droy knows
better than anyone else how Jet feels. Only that Droy gave the hope, that Levy
would feel anything like love for him, up a long time ago. They are still
something like brothers for her and Jet should finally understand that.
"I also think that you should give her some
time…", sounds that clear, allknowing voice of Mira, who is at the beer
tap right now. "Levy isn’t a child anymore, she is strong and she knows
what she wants…" it comes from Mira emphatically as she sets a jug of beer
in front of each of them. "Just be there if she needs friends… or big
brothers.", Miras smile is as clear and honest as always, as she gives
that advice. She saw Levy at the island. She is not a woman that gives up
easily or to break down. And something else also occurred to her. She saw what
only a few saw. She knows at who Levy is looking at and at who she wants to
lean in her sadness. If that somebody understands that or even registers it is
another question. "Its on the house.", she ads and nods at the jugs,
before she goes to take another order.
Jet and Droy let themselves calm down from Miras words
and cheer at each other, before they turn their attention to their free beer.
Levy would come to them when it was time. They just would give her some time,
so that she could sort out her thoughts and feelings. Everyone who knows Jets
feelings knows that that is especially hard for him.
It’s
already late afternoon when he decides to look after Levy regardless. With a
new novel, he bought shortly before, and a small package chocolate he went to
Fairy Hills, but had to go again because Levy is out for a walk and nobody
knows where she went. He leaves the book and the chocolate with Laki and just
wants to go home. But soon he goes for a walk himself. He worries and thinks a
lot so it’s better to take a nice walk at the fresh air as to hide in his own
walls.
Without
registering the way, he walks across the park at the south gate of town.
"Wow… I went really far.", he states surprised and decides to go to
the park a bit. At the stairs, that lead down to the park he stops in his
tracks. He stumbles a few steps back in his surprise, in the first
moments he isn’t able to breathe. It is as if his heart is breaking in his
chest.
Jets
widened eyes stare at the pair under that one tree, in the middle of the park.
Levy hid herself at Gajeels chest and seems to tell him something under tears.
In the face of the Dragon Slayer lays a weirdly soft expression as he strokes
her back tenderly. Jet gets afflicted by many feelings. Horror, Desperation and
last but not least terrible anger, that boils up inside him.
"What
does that bastard think?! How can he dare to take advantage of her in her
state?!!", the thoughts race through his head. As Gajeel kisses Levy he
wants to storm down there and free Levy out of his clutches. Jet doesn’t care
if Gajeel would rip him to shreds for it. Gajeel shall not get Levy! Everyone,
just not him! In his anger he runs around in circles, he wants to make his
thoughts true, as he hears Levys surprised scream. He storms back to the stairs
in panic and hesitates.
Is that a laugh that hollers over the park to him?
Levys
laugh… that he didn’t hear for over seven years that happily, beautiful and
honest? It has to be so, because even Levys face is one single laugh as she
squirms in Gajeels cross-legged while he grins at her cheekily. When they kiss
again Jet turns around with clenched hands and teeth. Soon his body goes
limp and he drags himself away devastated and crestfallen.
"Why?
Why exactly him?", it rants behind his forehead but it really isn’t
something new the way Levy always looked at that Dragon Slayer. But now, as he
sees it with his own eyes, it hits hard and he thinks he has to disappear, so
great is the pain in his chest. Even worse than the fact, that Levy loves
Gajeel is that he knows how to make her laugh though.
Gajeel
did what he and Droy couldn’t do even though they know Levy from the cradle.
Even after they were a team for years and thought they know everything about
each other. Thought, nobody could get between them.
That damn Dragon Slayer… did it…
In the next few days Jet feels really down. He tries
to avoid Levy and Gajeel as good as possible. He told Droy about what he saw
and he was also as shocked and hurt as he was himself. But besides him Jet
didn’t tell anyone. Like he sees that thing, Levy and Gajeel seem to make a
secret out of it themselves before they would reveal everything to the others.
Not even Lucy, Levys best friend knows about it.
Jet knows that it is not his turn to make it official.
And who knows? Maybe they are just testing out if they can be in a relationship,
before they tell anyone. “Relationship”, only at the thought of that Jets
stomach acts up. He can’t imagine it, not these two. But the hope didn’t die
yet. Sooner or later Levy will realize that Gajeel isn’t the right one for her.
Then he will be there and comfort her.
Jet shudders at the thought how sly he could be. He is
horrified about himself, how jealous he can be. Every time he sees Levy he
could cry from the pain. Different when Gajeel appears in his field of vision.
The anger in his stomach bubbles up and he would love to thump that Dragon
Slayer, who dared to touch his Levy, in front of everybody just now. Jet knows
that he wouldn’t stand a chance. He grew stronger in the past seven years but
against Gajeel he wouldn’t last long. Jet doesn’t have any doubts. Gajeel would
break his neck… he would just kill him and get rid of him somewhere.
In all his terrible daydreams he didn't register that
Gajeel stands in front of his table. "Do I have something in my face or
why are you starring at me the whole time so stupidly?" that one growls at
him. Jet sat up straight in his chair. "No… it’s nothing. I was just
thinking.", Jet tries to keep his voice as calm as possible. He doesn’t
want to start a fight right here and now, even though his mind is screaming for
it. "Then its fine…", Gajeel states with his normal disinterested
voice, before he turns around and leaves the building.
"That was dangerous…" Droy murmurs, who took
up position in his near just to be safe. "Pull yourself together. Or do want
to provoke him?" he urges Jet before he leaves him alone again.
"Provoke him…" he wipes his face agitated
and stands up. He would love nothing more than to just clobber Gajeel. But even
so he knows that that would hurt Levy. That Jet knows exactly, because he watched
her the last days since what he saw at the park.
Levys mood is a lot better now, she laughs more often
and her eyes literally glow. She doesn’t reveal herself in any way, but if
someone knew her good enough and studied her facial expressions the way he did,
it’s obvious that she is in love.
For Gajeel he doesn’t know. Not that he would be
interested but even him he watched the whole time, if he let his guard down
that much. Gajeel behaves like always. He is quiet, unobtrusive, always gloomy
and disinterested in everything. Only once he is sure, that he saw a weak smile
on the Dragon Slayers face. When his path crossed Levys.
Those two are really champions to hide their feelings
from everyone. The only time when Jet thought that it was too obvious, was when
Gajeel went to the Library to look something up and left it sometime afterwards
with a special grin. Even so was Levy, who left the cellar one hour later, much
more obvious, because she suddenly misused her hairband as a scarf. She surely
was the opinion that nobody would notice it. Nobody would, besides if it was
him, who always knew what she was wearing and how she bound her hair.
Jet questions, if they really want to wait until after
the grand magic games to reveal the truth to the others and he would be given
pitifully gazes. A deep sigh escapes his throat while he leaves the guild. He
cant stand being here right now. Not in her near. He has to sort out his own
thoughts and worries. His worries… because they are not half bad. After all it
is Gajeel Levy fell in love with. Jet doesn’t trust him, he never did. He
worries, that he is up to some mischief. He would have to watch him more to
find out. The chance to get killed while doing was still there. He is caught
between the devil and the deep blue sea… but for Levy he would go to death.
Sighing he goes home to think of the perfect "battle plan" for his
scheme.
He tries to find something out for days already. He
watches Levy and Gajeel at their secret meetings even though its hard to be a
part of it. Luckily the Dragon Slayer didn’t try to get under Levys clothes by
now, otherwise he wouldn’t have known if he could have held back. He even asked
Droy to be aware of them if possible but he didn’t want to know anything about
that. "I don't have a death wish.", he said and left it at that. Droy
didn’t want to go that far and get confronted with Gajeels wrath just because
he was spying at him. Droy would be more aware of them in the guild he
promised.
But until now everything was harmless. Mostly they met
at the beach or at the park. They went out to eat only once and then Lily was
with them. The way it looks there is no danger. The thought that Gajeel really
means it with Levy is taking more and more place in his head. But he just can’t
accept that. There has to be a hitch somewhere.
So he follows them to their meeting that evening
again. Jet is a bit stunned as they see each other off. Only then it comes in
his mind that they are going to train for the Grand Magic Games tomorrow.
When Levy and Gajeel kiss as a good-bye, Jet turns
around. By this time he built up some respect and decency for them. When Gajeel
is out of sight he watches Levy, who turns around happily and hops back to
"Fairy Hills". She really recovered since then. She shines and laughs
just like before. It seems like she started blooming.
Slowly and hardly he tears his gaze away from her and
decides to follow Gajeel. He perceived that Gajeel meant it but he still had a
bad feeling about it all. Maybe Gajeel wouldn’t go for his "secret training"
but to something completely different. Jet at least wants to know in which
direction Gajeel would go so he follows him to the end of the street that is
leading out of town.
“Someone is following us...” Lily whispers who is now
flying at Gajeels height. “I know...” Gajeel answers whispering and his
enthusiasm about it, is clearly audible.
“Ok...” Gajeel stops abruptly. That couldn’t go on
like that. He doesn’t want that guy to lie between him and Levy in the bed one
day. “Hey, stop hiding! I know that you are there!” Gajeel screams without even
turning around.
Jet understands that it doesn’t get him anywhere to do
as if he didn’t hear anything. Quietly sighing and obviously caught in the act
he stumbles out of the bushes left of them. Jet is sure that he will die here
and now.
“Why the heck are ya sticking to me like wax?” Gajeel
flares over him and builds up in front of him with his arms crossed. “I will go
ahead...” it comes from Lily who doesn’t want to get involved in that. “No! Ya
stay here!” with those words Gajeel grabs the tail of his partner and holds him
back, “I need you as a witness! I don’t want to be at fault if something
happens to him before he gets back to the guild.” he appeals to Lilys
consciousness and he agrees sighing. “How long do ya wanna keep that up? Do ya
wanna lie between us in the bed, when we are there once?” he fixes his angry
gaze on Jet.
Jet returns the gaze steadily and also builds up in
front of Gajeel with his arms crossed. “What do you want with Levy?” he gets at
the point immediately. “Hm... let’s think... What would ya want with her? Buy
her pretty things... pamper her? Kiss her? Rip her clothes of her and...”
Gajeel would love to list provokingly, just for the hell of it, but he keeps
silent and waits for Jet to continue.
“What are you up to? I can’t imagine that you are
serious! Exactly like back then, when you forced yourself on her to be her
partner in the S-exam, you only think of your own advantage! You are playing
with her and she doesn’t deserve that!” all accusations pour out of him like a
waterfall until he ends. “One thing I tell you... If you make her cry... or
hurt her... you get into trouble with me! Did you hear?!” by now Jet stands
directly in front of Gajeel and flashes at him angrily.
Gajeel looks at him quizzically; the way Jet pants and
fights for his composure he was at the end of his preaching. “Oh my... Because
of those threats I won’t be able to sleep tonight...” Gajeel just can’t hold
that dry comment back. “For god’s sake take me serious, you oaf!” Jet screams
and turns his back grinding.
Gajeel knows about Jets feelings for Levy, but that he
would get confronted with them one day he would have never imagined. He sighs
hardly audible and fixates Jet with his glare. “What do ya even care?” he asks
now and stares down at Jet whose eyes grow wide. “Levy can protect herself, ya
should accept her decisions. She isn’t ya property!” the Dragon Slayer snorts
and turns his back on him.
Jet shudders, he gets insecure. “What am I even doing
here?” Jet realizes how right Gajeel is. What a friend is he, if he calls the
decisions the person he loves the most makes so in question? How big is his
trust and his belief in Levy? Jet gets on his knees.
“I... I love her... I’ve always loved her!” it comes from
Jet who fights down his tears. Gajeel listens up. He knew that it would hurt
Jet if Levy fell in love with someone else, but not that Jet would hurt that
much. He nearly pitied him, but only nearly. “I would have done everything for
her... I waited for her all those years... she... she would be fine with me...”
it is harder and harder for Jet to hold back his tears but he fights them down
bravely. “And... and then she throws herself at someone like you” with from
anger glowing eyes he looks up at Gajeel.
“I don’t force her to anything...” he states calmly.
"I
never understood…. how she could forgive you…" he talks about that time
when Gajeel beat their whole team and pinned them to a tree in the park. Gajeel
smiles weakly. "Weird… seems like we are one opinion." it’s a bitter
smile on Gajeels face. It’s the first time that Jet sees something like that on
Gajeel. "That’s just how she is…", Gajeel adds and looks at the way
he still has to go. The sun sunk deep already, the way and the town behind them
are bathed in the red light of the sunset. Lily sits on a big stone at the side
of the path and watches the scenery in front of him quietly. He recognizes that
the mood of them changed, it got calmer.
"You…love
her?" Jets voice, that suddenly sounds strong and calm, breaks the
silence. Jet, who stood up by now, has still tears in his eyes but they were
drying already. Gajeels spins around to him but he gazes away again
immediately. He doesn’t really know an answer. "love?" the Dragon
Slayer whispers nearly not audible. "If ya… cant forget someone… do ya
call it that?" he ask without turning around and without expecting an
answer. He knows the answer already. Jet experiences for the first time that it
is possible to talk normally to Gajeel. Maybe he isn’t such a bad guy? There
had to be something on him that isn’t as bad as he lets people think, otherwise
Levy wouldn’t love him.
"Possible…"
he answers and averts his gaze. He knew it, but didn’t want to accept it.
Gajeel… he probably really does love her. Its Levys decision and against that
Jet doesn’t want and will not do anything against. He would have to let her go,
like he should have seven years ago. A weird silence settles down between those
three persons at the outskirts of town. The sun nearly disappeared behind the
horizon already, causes plays rich in contrast of sun and shadow.
"You…
will protect her… right?" Jet looks straight at Gajeel who is still not
looking at him. "Ya ask questions." Gajeel remarks casually and turns
back to him. The sun in his back is bloody-red and throws shadows in his face.
The twilight lets his already red eyes glow even more. "I would give
everyone hell!" Gajeels voice is dark, threatening his confidence strong.
He wouldn’t allow anyone to hurt her. That one would not get away unpunished,
or alive.
Gajeels
appearance makes Jets blood run cold but somehow he is relieved.
"Good…", he states and manages to smile a little. "Where that
all questions, daddy-in-law? We are in a hurry!" Gajeel is obviously
annoyed by now. He didn’t want himself to get hold back that long but he knew
that it was necessary. In the end Levy would have been caught between, so he
did it more for her than for him.
"Yes…",
Jet states calmly. "But don’t forget, if you hurt her I will fight
you!" Jet points his finger at Gajeel and he just grins this time.
"Ya better do that." with those last words Gajeel turns around again,
takes his bag, which he put away at the beginning of Jets preaching, and starts
to leave. Suddenly he stops again.
"Jet…"
Gajeel calls his name and Jet looks up wondering. It’s the first time that he
calls him by his name. "Look after her… as long as I'm not around."
Gajeel looks over his shoulder to him. "But keep ya hands of her!" he
adds and his gaze is so dark that it pierces marrow and bone. "Don’t
worry…" Jet lifts his hand shortly and looks after them before he turns
around and goes back to town.
With
light steps Jet goes home. It’s as if that took a load of his mind. He long
didn’t want to accept it, but Gajeel is right. He has to let Levy go her own
way. Even with the possibility ahead that she would get hurt. Love isn’t
something he could demand, Levy would only suffer. There was no use to follow
her around all time when she doesn’t have those feelings for him. Never had.
Jet would protect her from behind, he would be there when she needs a friend,
but he would never ever confess to her again. His love for her will be forever
but only in secret, deep hidden away in his heart.
Tears
of relief roll down his face. The pain would still last some time but as long
as Levy is happy he would only be a friend. Now he also understands the title
of one of the books Levy read years ago. He feels like a character in that book
which plot she told him. He feels "the pain of true love".
End
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Bonus-story
"What…?!",
it comes lurking from Gajeel who feels Lilys gazes on him since they left Jet
back there. "Do I look like a fish or something?" he adds and gives
vent to his mood. Until now he tried to ignore it but now he has had enough.
That thing before lowered his firstly good mood really. "Hey, am I Happy
or what?" Lily retorts first. "I have to say you were really
nice…" he says drily. "I actually believed you would stomp him, yell
some vulgar things at him and let him lie there…" he grins and raises
himself into the air to be on eyelevel with Gajeel.
"Wow
thank you very much… Ya really have a good opinion of me…" Gajeel growls.
"Do I look like a bully?" he points at himself sulky and stomps
on the way. "You ever looked in the mirror?" Lily comments and
follows him out of the forest on a clearing. "No, really now… you were
really calm and collected back there… does that have a special reason?"
Lily probes into it again.
"Ya
right… everyone else I would have broke the teeth…" Gajeel stops and looks
around if that would be a good spot for a camp. "But what should I do? He
is one of Levys friends… She wouldn’t be happy if I break his jaw, right?"
Gajeel explains and continues his way over the clearing.
"Yeah,
yeah… You and Levy… somehow weird, isn’t it?" For quite some time now Lily
has the feeling that Gajeel is hiding something from him. "Do you think
that is really such a good idea?" Lily decided to make use of Gajeels
talkative mood. "What do ya mean?" he plays the fool or he really
didn’t listen anymore. "That with you and Levy!" the Exceed exclaims
loudly. Gajeel spins around and covers his mouth. "Not that loud
dammit." Gajeel glances around searching. At the end of the clearing two
dark spots sit in the dry branches of a old, dead tree. "Lets talk
somewhere else…" Gajeel whispers, let’s go of him and continues their way.
Lily doesn’t understand but he leaves it at that. His partner suddenly seems
really tense.
When
the two dark spots form the branches fly over their heads he hears Gajeel sigh
relieved. But his face stays tense as he follows the two raves with his eyes.
"Not long…" he talks to himself and continues his way. Now Lilys
question is justified and that when Lily doesn’t even know of his life as a double-spy.
Gajeel has the dump feeling that he would meet his other master soon. The
Dragon Slayer really thinks about letting Lily know everything, just in case.
Together they leave the clearing because it doesn’t seem to be a good spot for
a camp in Gajeels eyes.
Bonus-story
End
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Well…
somehow my OS seem to always get that long… ^_^ I hope you don’t mind.
I
hope you still liked it even though it wasn’t about other, more popular main
characters.
Greetings,
until the next FF,
your
Rave
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